Somebody pinch me.

I just went for my '12 week' scan.

Baby measured spot on for dates (12w4d) and the technician said everything looks 'normal'.

I seriously don't know what to feel. A huge part of me felt relief. Now, I feel worried again as I feel like I have so much to lose now. The baby was kicking its legs, rolling around and had all of its organs in place. I love the baby so much and this feeling overwhelms me so much that at times I cry because of the love I feel for him/her.

It's funny, because I know some people can find out the sex at this scan but it didn't even occur to me to ask. I don't care if the baby is a boy or girl,  I just want them to be safe and healthy.

How do I describe this feeling?

I have just been for another ultrasound. I was supposed to measure 10 weeks and 1 day but I'm measuring 10 weeks and 3 days! The heart was beating strong, there was longer limbs, a more defined face (nose, chin, forehead etc) and the baby was moving around and using mummy's uterus as a slippery dip!

Of course I am still worried about everything that could go wrong, but seeing my baby there, moving around, well... the word 'happy' doesn't cut it. My husband was amazed. We both looked at the screen with adoring eyes.

I wish I could feel confident, but all I seem to do is worry about the what ifs. What if my cervix shortens early? Why happens if there isn't enough blood supply going to the placenta?

Thank you for all the support so far. I've really needed it and will continue to need it! It means a lot to me.